Growing My Family Blog - You're Not Alone

  You’re approaching a big one. That mid-pregnancy milestone often circled on the calendar with a mixture of eager anticipation and a good dose of trepidation: the anatomy scan. Usually performed around 18-22 weeks, this detailed ultrasound is a crucial checkpoint, offering an in-depth look at your baby’s physical development, their organs, their growth, and often, the exciting (if you choose to find out!) reveal of their sex. For many expectant parents, it’s a moment of reassurance and profound connection. But when you’re pregnant after the long, often anxiety-ridden journey of infertility, the anatomy scan can feel less like a joyful peek and more like a high-stakes examination. The relief and gratitude upon receiving good news can be absolutely immense, a moment where hope feels more solid, more real than ever before. However, the lead-up to this scan, and the scan itself, can also be fraught with intense anxiety. That familiar fear of "what if something is wrong?" – a fea...

  Hey there, Friend! It is the scenario that haunts your nightmares leading up to the holiday season. You are standing by the fireplace, maybe holding a cup of eggnog, actually having a decent time. You’ve let your guard down just a little bit. And then, it happens. The clinking of a spoon against a glass, or a sudden hush falling over the room. A couple joyfully announces that they are expecting. Maybe they hold up a tiny pair of holiday pajamas or a "Baby’s First Christmas" ornament. The room instantly erupts in cheers, hugs, and happy tears. And for you, amidst the festive lights and laughter, it feels like a bomb has gone off in your chest. The physical sensation can be terrifying—the ringing in your ears, the sudden nausea, the feeling that the walls are closing in. Your own emotions—shock, grief, jealousy, and anger—can be so overwhelming that it feels impossible to know how to react. First, take a breath. Your reaction is normal. This is one of the most acute and painf...

  Hey there, Friend. Let’s talk about the holiday party that happens right in the palm of your hand: social media. During this season, our feeds can transform into a non-stop highlight reel of perfect family photos, adorable children in matching pajamas, and, of course, festive pregnancy announcements. It can feel like an emotional minefield, and a single scroll can send you into a spiral of comparison and grief. Protecting your peace doesn't just apply to in-person events; it is absolutely crucial for your digital life as well. You have the power to curate a social media experience that feels more like a warm hug and less like a gut punch. The Gentle Mute Button: The mute button is your best friend. It allows you to temporarily stop seeing someone's posts without the drama of unfriending them. They will never know, and you can always unmute them later when you feel more resilient. Mute friends who are currently pregnant, friends with newborns, or anyone whose posts feel parti...

Hey there, Friend! So, you’ve decided to go to the party. You’ve checked in with yourself, you feel you have the capacity, and you’re actually looking forward to connecting. You put on your festive outfit, you have your game plan, and you walk through the door feeling brave. But then, suddenly, you hit a wall. Maybe it happens an hour in, or maybe it happens ten minutes after you arrive. It could be sparked by a painful conversation that blindsides you near the punch bowl. It could be seeing one too many "Baby’s First Christmas" outfits. Or maybe, amidst the loud music, the heat of the kitchen, and the high-energy chatter, your social battery simply drains to zero. Suddenly, the lights feel too bright, the room feels too small, and all you want—with a desperate urgency—is to be back in your own home, in your pajamas, in your safe space. This moment is critical. This is where the "Gracious Exit" becomes your best friend. The Gracious Exit is the art of leaving an eve...

Hey there, Friend! Picture this: You are in the middle of a holiday gathering. The room is loud, the air is warm, and suddenly—whether it’s a triggering comment from a relative, a pregnancy announcement that catches you off guard, or just the sheer weight of the season—you feel your heart start to race. It feels like your thoughts and emotions have turned into a runaway train, barreling down the tracks with no way to stop. In those moments, your body goes into survival mode. Your chest tightens, your palms sweat, and you feel like you might either explode or collapse. It is a terrifying feeling, especially when you are trying to hold it all together over a festive dinner. We want to give you a practical, simple tool to keep in your back pocket for exactly these moments. Think of it as your emotional emergency brake. We call it  The Power of the Pause . Let’s be very clear: This isn't about "taking a deep breath and getting over it." This is about biology. When you are tri...

Hey there, Friend! We need to talk about a specific kind of silence that happens right in the middle of the loudest time of the year. Loneliness isn't just about being physically alone in an empty room. In fact, the sharpest, most piercing kind of loneliness often happens when you are standing right in the middle of a crowded kitchen, surrounded by the people you love most. It’s the feeling of being unseen and misunderstood while the holiday chaos swirls around you. You can be enveloped in the warmth of a family gathering, with holiday music playing and laughter filling the air, and yet feel like you are stranded on a deserted island, separated from everyone else by a vast ocean of unspoken grief. This is the unique paradox of the holidays when you are waiting for your family to grow. The season is designed to be about connection, tradition, and the passing of time. But when you are in the trenches of infertility, the holidays can feel like a magnifying glass on what is missing. Yo...

  Hey there, Friend! Let’s talk about the feeling that no one wants to admit to, especially during the holidays. It’s that sudden gut-punch you feel when you scroll past a pregnancy announcement on social media—maybe one with matching holiday pajamas or a "baby's first Christmas" ornament. It’s the complicated knot in your stomach when a friend tells you their happy news over cocoa. It’s an ugly, uncomfortable feeling, isn't it? And it is almost always followed immediately by a wave of shame. You think, "What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy for them?" Let’s be very clear: feeling jealous does not make you a bad friend, a bitter person, or a "Grinch." In our GrowingMyFamily community, we are brutally honest about the fact that jealousy is arguably the most common and predictable emotion on this journey. It simply means you are human, and you are grieving. Your reaction isn't about their joy; it's about your pain. We need to r...

Hey there, Friend! Have you ever felt a sudden, hot flash of anger that takes you completely by surprise? Maybe it was sparked by a thoughtless comment over holiday dinner, another "miracle baby" story on your social feed, or just the sheer, infuriating unfairness of it all. It’s a feeling that can be jarring, especially during a season that is supposed to be all about "peace on Earth" and "goodwill to men." You might even feel a wave of guilt follow that anger, whispering that you are being bitter or a "Scrooge." Let’s be very clear: your anger is not a character flaw. It is more than okay; it is a healthy, powerful, and completely understandable response to the injustice of infertility. Anger is simply the emotion of passion. It shows up when something you care deeply about is being threatened or blocked. It’s a sign that you are fighting, that you haven’t given up, and that you love your future family with a fiery intensity. Your anger deserve...